Night

So many days not entering this blog.

Night at early spring, few minds flash across, and don't have way to tell it out.

These days I had find the most inner part of mine, and although it was so cruel and nude, I feel smooth to accept it. Not only because it was really some part of me, and I knew it so early in my life, thought it's so vague.

I enjoy the life i have so far in this semester, but I know what's the truly desire in my deep instinct. I knew it, I knew it long time ago, and that's why I have so strange passion in my daily life.

I knew it, I could feel it so vivid at that moment, but I knew what could I do is to be indifferent of it and have nothing difference in motion. I knew that maybe be with me in the long rest of life. Maybe I will search some remedy for it, but I know it's hard to find.



I am truly longing for the company in my life, truly desire for it. But I still get used to how hard to find the right one.


And all what I can do is keeping searching ... and pray.